She talks. They talk, about their religion and proclaiming how faithful they are.
God is good. God can do miracles. Bible is sacred and the truth. Church is Pious.
But to me, things like this are waste. Do you want to perpetuate goodness? Act and serve sincerely.
Faith is not how lovely your statements are, faith is action, as well as goodness. I deeply sighs to those people who kept saying that they are so holy but they cannot even give a single coin to a mendicant, because they don't even bother look at them.
Words became worthless, if they do not have essence. But, what makes me more disappointed right now than this thoughts is that, my today's mission failed :(
I was in the car and we were stuck in the traffic, when I saw someone who passed by with his intestine (if I am not mistaken) sticking out. It was bloody red which was quite large. It was raining and he was walking along the road. My companion was quite ridiculous because he felt nauseated by the sight of that. But i don't want to criticize much, maybe he isn't just used to that. I wanted to run, to send him in the hospital. But the car already moved and I thought if I send him, the operation would be too expensive and I don't even have a thousand bucks in my pocket that time. The doctors might just ignore us. But as I watched him walk away, I wanted to do something. I squeezed my brain thinking what I can do. But until now, i cannot find any means how to help him. And what's more sad about that, he might be dead right now (his insides were open and might be severely infected), because I did not help him :(
I feel so stupid. I feel so lame, I even wrote about this but I did not even act. But I just feel so depressed that I really need to write about this :( Yeah, I usually write when I'm too down.
I promise to do my mission everyday, but today, I failed :(
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